Feelings

So how is everybody? I am doing great and not so great which is why I have named this post feelings. I am great because I have been dieting and exerciseing my but off for the last 30 something days and its HAS payed off people! 11 lbs gone as of this morning, which brings my weight down to 234! So since november of 2011 which I was at a weight of 255 I have lost 21 lbs and how awesome is that!!
Now to explain why I don't feel so great and that is because it is still taking to long to fit into smaller cloths or even get my original cloths to fit right, I look in the mirror and still see the same old me, the scales are moving and I feel a lot better, more energy and I don't feel sick as much anymore and its a great feeling really to start running around with the kids but I can't see the weight dissapearing. I know its gonna take time and I am not going to give up but still there is always the little voice in the bakc of my head saying that I can't do this. I am praying that little voice is wrong...
So I have been watching my calorie intake and walking a lot along with the tredmill, and exercise videos and running after the kids and cleaning the house but I haven't really changed what I eat still eat terrible but slowly starting to incorperate veggies into my diet ( I absolutly hate them) also eating less take out and more homecooked meals, cutting out snacks and high calorie foods but I have been trying this for a while because of my diabetes I have to watch what I eat as well.
My biggest down fall was over eating and chips, so I have cut down on how much food I eat and that was tough, felt like I was starving all the time, bad hunger pains so to curb that I would exercise and drink water, by the way mio is great to change the tast of water and there is no calories! as well I stopped chips to once a week or less and I am so proud of my self for what I have done so far.
Eventually I shall post pics. Another thing that helps me is knowing my long term goal which is 140 and then making mini goals along the way so to keep me at this like I am 234 so now I nee 4 more lbs gone then I will be 230! I like to get myself hyped up about it. Anyway that is it for now and I shall get back to ya when I have lost another 10 - 20 lbs!